I've grown weary of my inability to let go.
We've had the same argument too many times.
Every time, I fight against my better judgement and I always win.

Finished Perks, it's a way easy, super-fast read, but I like it every time.
Still trying to trudge through The Gunslinger. It's really good, but it's really hard to follow sometimes. I guess the more you read the easier it is, but I dunno.
Somehow it took me less time to read The Stand and it was 1000+ pages with font like this. The Gunslinger is 200ish with font like this and I'm struggling to make it through. Super gimp.

I'm turning 19 in less than 2 weeks.
It's my Golden Birthday.
I get a $25 gift card from one of the stores I work at and hopefully will get a few bucks from family. Plus I get paid the Saturday and Wednesday before, so I'm deciding what I want to do with my day.

On the 24th it's the 6 year anniversary of my grandma's death.
I want to go to the graveyard, but I'm thinking about going alone. I have a bad feeling about taking a certain person with me and I don't really want to drag anyone else along.
I saw a picture of her at Pat's last night and I had to cry.
Why do really beautiful people have to die?

I have pretty legitimate gift ideas for our Holiday in July.
I was thinking we could push it to August and have a Holiday/Birthday for ashleigh, but I wouldn't want to make you feel like your birthday is less important.
Really, I just want to give you two gifts at once. :D
I tend to be an over-gifter when I have money, but I doubt I'll hear complaints.
I guess I feel like I owe something to all of you for putting up with me and I'm big on "the Spirit of Giving" and what-not.
Fucking Hallmark...

I think that's all for today.